My Grandpa watching me draw with his great-grandkids on my last birthday before he died. |
It’s
Saturday. I watch the hands on the mirrored clock, eyes straying to the forest
scene held within it, always pulled into those rays of light and their
stillness, even as the ticking hands keep their movement. It’s almost noon, every
week, my metronome, arriving between 11:59 or 12:01, no earlier or later- unless
something was wrong.
The
door knob turns and I am in the front room with my lunch, waiting. Your head
pokes in first, always with a wink and a twinkling eye. Then your voice rings
out a greeting, the magician entering as if his arrival is unexpected and the
audience plays along.
“What
kind of sandwich are you having today?” you ask with laughing eyes. The stars
could be navigated by my predictability.
“Bologna,
cheese, mustard, and potato chip,” I reply.
“What
kind of potato chip?” you ask, and I was waiting for you to ask. You know salt
and vinegar are my favorite but sometimes I like the ketchup-flavored ones that
come in the big metal tubs the man delivers to our house. You pretend to be
surprised that I am having a bologna sandwich and I giggle. It’s our thing.
It’s
Saturday. I remember the mirrored clock that belonged to my parent’s house. My
heart still lives in that forest. The digital blue of my clock flickers, 11:59
to noon- at times like this I miss the ticking reminder of time passing.
The
scent of your cologne drifts in as the bells on the back of the front door
jingle. The doorknob turns and I pour you a cup of coffee. I make a sandwich I
barely have anymore, drawing a smiley face on one piece of bread with the
mustard, because that’s how the mustard
goes on. I hear my younger voice explaining it to you and I smile.
I
pour a cup of coffee I won’t drink and I leave it for you on the table. As I
crunch down into my sandwich, I miss you and I love you and I’m glad you came
to visit. It’s our thing. I know you’d never miss it.
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