“When you come out of the storm,
you won’t be the same person that walked in. That’s what the storm is all
about.”
The quote is by the Japanese
author, Haruki Murakami, and it is true about every hurdle and curveball life
throws at us. Every experience we have changes us. The way we see the world alters
and we adapt, finding ourselves in another period of transformation, where we
become a new version of ourselves. When things get hard, that’s a hope you hold
onto… that you will be a better person for it when it’s past.
These storms, these hard moments do
not happen to us because there’s some greater reason, or purpose. No deity is
pulling strings from behind their curtain in the heavens to manipulate our lives.
Sometimes the point simply is that we survive, that we change, and that we
become something and someone new to discover. We are the journey.
Everyone’s journey is different.
But we all have one. That is a constant truth. We are all muddling through this
life together, while we’re here. But it does no good to compare your journey to
anyone else’s. It does no good to judge yourself based on where you stand in
relation to those around you. It is up to you to reflect on who you are, where
you’ve been, and where you’re going. How do you feel about your path? Your
choices? Listen to your intuition? Despite what the outside world would say to
you, do you feel your feet are moving in the right direction?
We are constantly changing and
evolving and it’s good to know where you are in the journey. This time of year,
when the cold drives us indoors and the earth slumbers beneath us, is a good
time to check in with yourself, to listen to yourself, and see what things you
cling to, that you no longer need, that are hurting you.
We think about life and time like
it’s a straight line. We’re born, we live, and we die. Especially in
genealogical work, that’s what our ancestors become, names on a timeline. But while
you’re living life, you understand it’s not a straight line at all. It’s a path
that goes up and down and often trails back across itself.
Life runs in cycles, like a spiral
going upward around the outside of a glass cup. Always forward, always in
motion, even though from an aerial view, the path you are walking looks like a
circle, winding around and around without exits to get off. That’s what it
looks like and often what it feels like, but it’s actually a line, with
revolutions layered atop each other. We often come back to the same places we’ve
been before. As we age we revisit these spaces with new and older eyes and the
way we perceive our world shifts and opens with each overlap.
We often talk about getting stuck
in hamster wheels… but the point is, when we realize we’re repeating unsuccessful
patterns, to see it with new eyes and make a different choice so that we do not
find ourselves back there again. These are opportunities for us to reshape the parts
of ourselves and our lives we’re not happy with. That is when we move up the
glass, up the path. The wheel, the circle, the path, the spiral… all of these
are among the shapes of transformation.
I talked last week about using
petrified wood as a tool in my ancestor meditations. Another fossil I treasure
is the ammonite, with its spiraling shell. It reminds me of the spiraling
journey upward and inward. It represents the need to move into the darkness to
get through it and back out into the light. One of my personal mantras is, the only way out is through. The
ammonite reminds me of the labyrinth, turning inward so that I may later turn
out with new knowledge.
It’s important for us to be the
best versions of ourselves we can be. I am not the same person I was, nor am I
the same as the person I will be. But I trust that my feet are walking the path
I am meant to walk, and that kindness and compassion are the seeds I am
planting. I trust that the world I am leaving behind me is a better world than
the one I walked through. I trust that I am leaving the world a better place
for those who will come after me. Through every painful transformation, when I
fight against giving in to what society wants me to be, I hold tightly to
Mother Theresa’s words, because it’s what I believe in my heart of hearts:
"People are often unreasonable and
self-centered. Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of
ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. If you
are honest, people may cheat you. Be
honest anyway. If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway. The good you do today may be
forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give
your best anyway. Afterall, it was never between you and them anyway."
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