One
of the easiest methods for spirits to communicate with us is through our
dreams. People with vivid and active dream lives are extra sensitive to this
energy and more likely to experience and recall them. Everyone perceives the
sensory nature of visitations differently. In sharing my own, I hope to help
others discover their own methods of connection.
A
year ago our 22 year-old tiger cat passed away. Zami was with me for most of my
adult firsts. She was our companion, more like a third partner. Even the
cranky-old-lady-who-slept-twenty-three-hours-a-day's loss left an emptiness in
our home. It ebbed when I wasn't looking. The new silence became the new
normal. And life continued on.
Then
I had a dream last night. In it I was walking through our living room and I
looked over to see her curled up and sleeping beneath our tree. I got halfway across the room
before my sarah-brain noted that I wasn't having a
hey-look-my-dead-cat-is-in-this-one, but rather a Holy Shit Spirit Zami is
Visiting!
For
me the difference is obvious, like the difference between the quality of a show
shot on videotape versus a movie shot on film. Only the spirit visitor is one
version overlaid atop the main dream. They're impossible for me not to notice.
And
there Zami was. I approached her tentatively, afraid she'd vanish after I
noticed her. I called her name and she opened one eye at me before closing it
again, ignoring my presence. (That's another way I knew it was her, lol.) And then I touched her.
There was a pang for a moment, as if I had forgotten how she felt beneath my
palm and the memory woke again in me.
I
touched her and she leaned into it as her fucking-loud-ass-purr-machine revved
into overdrive. When she was alive she could purr so loud for so long that when she stopped in the
night it would wake me.
In the dream I was crying. It hurt.
In the dream I was crying. It hurt.
My
heart hurts thinking about it now. But I wouldn't change it. I wouldn't wish it
away for I am reminded of how much I loved her and how much I love her still.
I had a best friend for 10 years who was part-shepherd, part-lab, and part human. With Katie as my companion and protector, I was able to live as an independent woman through my 20s, which was a true gift. She passed within a month after my now-husband moved in. It was as though she said, "I've watched over her for 10 years. Now I'm passing that on to you." That was in 1985.
ReplyDeleteI participated in a Vision Quest in 2000. The preparation time took 6 months. I grew more and more nervous as we reached the threshold of my 3-day Quest-in-the-Woods. What if I didn't get a vision, after all this work?
The night before I began my stay in the woods, I had a dream. In it, I was walking down a pine-needle-carpeted path in a green wood. I looked to my left side and saw Katie walking next to me! I grew excited to see her, and she morphed into a black bear (one of my totems), running beside me! As I began to run, I lifted up and began to fly! I woke from that dream knowing all would be well on my Quest.
My Quest location was in the woods under a huge pine tree, thickly carpeted with pine needles that added beauty and comfort to my 3-day stay. There were also a few smaller trees that had fallen over through time, were eroded and partly covered with pine needles. One small pine was located just outside of my circle and its roots were worn down to long nubs by the weather over the year. Over the next couple of days, as my mind altered in the woods, I realized that those roots represented (and even looked like!) Katie as she would lie in a room with me, her head on her paws, watching me with her ears perked up, waiting to see what I would do/where I would go next.
What comfort our four-legged friends bring us! Thank you for sharing about Zami so that I could revisit Katie and her constant presence of love and protection.
Kate
Thank you for sharing, Kate! That's wonderful. These experiences help show me that the people and beings we make connections with... those connections transcend the physical world, even if we cannot put real words to it.
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